Testosterone. So many things I have been worried about with starting T. I have thought about this on and off for years. What I first found with my FB post that stated "Today I start a whole new journey! I have a few hours till I officially learn how to stab myself with testosterone! The excitement I had knowing I was going to the doctor today was ridiculous!" is that my friends all seemed to not only be INSANELY supportive and amazing, but also all were like "I know you've wanted this for so long so I'm happy for you!" Seems like I was the only one who didn't know.
January 17, 2019. This is my T-aversary! I went to the doctor, talked about all the weird other things she had to legally tell me, picked up all my stuff, and was ready to shoot myself up! She started me on 50 mg/ml once a week subcutaneously. The shot was super easy for me. I was nervous but it really was nothing. I felt light headed about an hour after, like my brain was like "What did you do...?" But I also hadn't eaten so I can't guarantee what was happening.
In the first few days, I have had a lot of weird feelings. These are all things people can't see and that's all good, I will warn that these are kind of graphic about genitals and such that not everyone wants to hear about.
Day one, first thing I noticed was energy. My energy levels have been all over the chart. I will go from "I am going to rule the world" to "I think I'll just sleep for a year." I also noticed my vertical clitoral hood piercing started to ache and be uncomfortable. It was one day later. I mean, I don't know if this was sensitivity increase or if it was more like my body cuing me that this was going to hurt if I didn't remove it. I promptly removed my jewelry and let it close up.
Day two I felt a few things. My chest muscle group was in pain. Not like growth pains when I had breast growth during first puberty, but like underneath. I think this is just like actual new muscle being like I am here and I will be growing so it's gonna hurt even if you didn't work out. This was SO EXCITING. Shortly after that I had the realization that I also was having period cramps. With my PCOS and IUD, I hadn't had a period or cramps really so this was not welcome. My doctor did warn me I would likely get this parting gift, which I am not excited about.
Day three, I am dealing with acne. This is nothing new and I shaved my face like two weeks ago so that has been happening already but it is very annoying. I have a good friend who had designed me a skincare routine that will probably make my skin super fucky for a month but hopefully help in the long run. Cross your fingers for me! I lifted weights for the first time since my shot and FUCK I felt like I could rule the world again. Running should be interesting. I also have had CRAZY cramps, but this is just expected I guess. What I somehow forgot about and was not expecting was for my scent to change. I mean my crotch smells different and it doesn't make a ton of sense to me. Like, not like my period, not like a dude, and not like I have in the past. It's weird. That's the only way I can describe it.
I wanted to keep very specific notes on this so I may update these first things in the next few weeks but I also took photos of my body (for me) and measurements which I may pull back out in a few months.
January 17, 2019. This is my T-aversary! I went to the doctor, talked about all the weird other things she had to legally tell me, picked up all my stuff, and was ready to shoot myself up! She started me on 50 mg/ml once a week subcutaneously. The shot was super easy for me. I was nervous but it really was nothing. I felt light headed about an hour after, like my brain was like "What did you do...?" But I also hadn't eaten so I can't guarantee what was happening.
In the first few days, I have had a lot of weird feelings. These are all things people can't see and that's all good, I will warn that these are kind of graphic about genitals and such that not everyone wants to hear about.
Day one, first thing I noticed was energy. My energy levels have been all over the chart. I will go from "I am going to rule the world" to "I think I'll just sleep for a year." I also noticed my vertical clitoral hood piercing started to ache and be uncomfortable. It was one day later. I mean, I don't know if this was sensitivity increase or if it was more like my body cuing me that this was going to hurt if I didn't remove it. I promptly removed my jewelry and let it close up.
Day two I felt a few things. My chest muscle group was in pain. Not like growth pains when I had breast growth during first puberty, but like underneath. I think this is just like actual new muscle being like I am here and I will be growing so it's gonna hurt even if you didn't work out. This was SO EXCITING. Shortly after that I had the realization that I also was having period cramps. With my PCOS and IUD, I hadn't had a period or cramps really so this was not welcome. My doctor did warn me I would likely get this parting gift, which I am not excited about.
Day three, I am dealing with acne. This is nothing new and I shaved my face like two weeks ago so that has been happening already but it is very annoying. I have a good friend who had designed me a skincare routine that will probably make my skin super fucky for a month but hopefully help in the long run. Cross your fingers for me! I lifted weights for the first time since my shot and FUCK I felt like I could rule the world again. Running should be interesting. I also have had CRAZY cramps, but this is just expected I guess. What I somehow forgot about and was not expecting was for my scent to change. I mean my crotch smells different and it doesn't make a ton of sense to me. Like, not like my period, not like a dude, and not like I have in the past. It's weird. That's the only way I can describe it.
I wanted to keep very specific notes on this so I may update these first things in the next few weeks but I also took photos of my body (for me) and measurements which I may pull back out in a few months.
Here's some pictures of me in the past few days!
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