Firstly, Yeah I said that and I am 28 years old. Come at me.
After that last update, not a lot happened throughout the week. I have had some irritation from what I assume is my body yelling at me for sweating more in my armpits. This is fun and itchy and requires I wipe down my armpits and air them out at least once a day. It's gotten better as I am writing this, but could get worse before the end of the post. (I am updating this often so I don't forget things, as that is the point.)
My second shot went really well. It also didn't hurt or bruise or anything. I spent a good hour in front of the mirror afterwards staring at myself and dancing. I have found I feel stronger, as to whether I am or not is up for debate. I feel more chilled out and less emotional now, which is really a relief. I have been able to let things slide easier. I have also noticed less rage when I drive. Surprising since I have always been a fairly aggressive driver.
My style has been an ever changing thing over the last 4 years as I tried to get more and more "adult" and feel right in my skin at the same time. Since my life is all over the place and I can just be me, I am able to just feel good about my outfits. I even feel sexy in them sometimes. I also got two new tattoos this week, which I love.
My sleep may finally be evening out, but that's up for debate considering my 4 hour nap I just took.
A few things that don't specifically fit in the physical transition stuff but made me happy. I finally went to the DMV, updated my address, and got my gender marker changed! Gender X is officially an informed consent thing in the state I live in and I am so happy to have gotten that chance. I also just needed to get my enhanced license so flying was possible. 😒 I had a guy at a store last week say "Is that all you want maaaaaan?" cause he had to process what he wished to call me first.
Today I got my annual call from the college I am an alum at. They were very nice and helped me update my info on their page. This led her to asking me if I had gotten a chance to visit, considering I live across the country now. I simply stated that visiting is dangerous for me as I am trans and my school is located in Alabama. She responded with "well that is reasonable." A few hours later, I checked my email and she had addressed it to "Mr. XXXX." This made me feel heard and pretty happy really. I have come to terms with the fact that masculine pronouns often do make me euphoric. It's confusing really but I don't hate it.
Took me a few weeks to get back here. We got a puppy! She's a butt but she's adorable so there's that.
I have been using KT tape to bind, which is really cool because my chest is small enough that I can do this and walk around confident with my chest flat enough to pass imho. Last week I took my third 4th shot and had a hard time with the pharmacy getting them to give me enough T to actually have a full dose. I am really enjoying the new me and being able to feel great for 4-5 days. This though comes with another 2-3 days of deep depression an anxiety. It's difficult but what this tells me is I really don't want to micro dose. I want to up my dose as soon as my doctor will let me.
I get irritable and crazy making but that seems to be more from lack of other human interaction and being stuck at home training the puppy. I have had SO MANY muscle pains I can't even keep track of them. Oh, and a few weeks ago I found that I thought I had a cold. Turns out my voice is just starting to drop. I don't love the voice cracking but it feels so good to know that means I am on my way to one of the main reasons I wanted T so badly.
Facial hair is begging to get a little different. I shaved off my peach fuzz around a week or so before starting T and I then had two little black hairs that liked to come around about once a month. Now, I have to shave like every other to every third day because, while no terminal hairs are growing there yet, the little baby hairs make me itchy and get more acne.
The only other thing this month I need to say is that bottom growth is real and it's weird as fuck. I don't necessarily want to go into detail but things are happening. I found that orgasms are different and I have 4 states of being: hungry, horny, hoarse, and sleepy. I can't think of another H word that means sleepy or tired but that's okay.
Tomorrow is 1 month on T and I am excited to keep going and see what happens with my body and my brain.
After that last update, not a lot happened throughout the week. I have had some irritation from what I assume is my body yelling at me for sweating more in my armpits. This is fun and itchy and requires I wipe down my armpits and air them out at least once a day. It's gotten better as I am writing this, but could get worse before the end of the post. (I am updating this often so I don't forget things, as that is the point.)
My second shot went really well. It also didn't hurt or bruise or anything. I spent a good hour in front of the mirror afterwards staring at myself and dancing. I have found I feel stronger, as to whether I am or not is up for debate. I feel more chilled out and less emotional now, which is really a relief. I have been able to let things slide easier. I have also noticed less rage when I drive. Surprising since I have always been a fairly aggressive driver.
My style has been an ever changing thing over the last 4 years as I tried to get more and more "adult" and feel right in my skin at the same time. Since my life is all over the place and I can just be me, I am able to just feel good about my outfits. I even feel sexy in them sometimes. I also got two new tattoos this week, which I love.
My sleep may finally be evening out, but that's up for debate considering my 4 hour nap I just took.
A few things that don't specifically fit in the physical transition stuff but made me happy. I finally went to the DMV, updated my address, and got my gender marker changed! Gender X is officially an informed consent thing in the state I live in and I am so happy to have gotten that chance. I also just needed to get my enhanced license so flying was possible. 😒 I had a guy at a store last week say "Is that all you want maaaaaan?" cause he had to process what he wished to call me first.
Today I got my annual call from the college I am an alum at. They were very nice and helped me update my info on their page. This led her to asking me if I had gotten a chance to visit, considering I live across the country now. I simply stated that visiting is dangerous for me as I am trans and my school is located in Alabama. She responded with "well that is reasonable." A few hours later, I checked my email and she had addressed it to "Mr. XXXX." This made me feel heard and pretty happy really. I have come to terms with the fact that masculine pronouns often do make me euphoric. It's confusing really but I don't hate it.
Took me a few weeks to get back here. We got a puppy! She's a butt but she's adorable so there's that.
I have been using KT tape to bind, which is really cool because my chest is small enough that I can do this and walk around confident with my chest flat enough to pass imho. Last week I took my third 4th shot and had a hard time with the pharmacy getting them to give me enough T to actually have a full dose. I am really enjoying the new me and being able to feel great for 4-5 days. This though comes with another 2-3 days of deep depression an anxiety. It's difficult but what this tells me is I really don't want to micro dose. I want to up my dose as soon as my doctor will let me.
I get irritable and crazy making but that seems to be more from lack of other human interaction and being stuck at home training the puppy. I have had SO MANY muscle pains I can't even keep track of them. Oh, and a few weeks ago I found that I thought I had a cold. Turns out my voice is just starting to drop. I don't love the voice cracking but it feels so good to know that means I am on my way to one of the main reasons I wanted T so badly.
Facial hair is begging to get a little different. I shaved off my peach fuzz around a week or so before starting T and I then had two little black hairs that liked to come around about once a month. Now, I have to shave like every other to every third day because, while no terminal hairs are growing there yet, the little baby hairs make me itchy and get more acne.
The only other thing this month I need to say is that bottom growth is real and it's weird as fuck. I don't necessarily want to go into detail but things are happening. I found that orgasms are different and I have 4 states of being: hungry, horny, hoarse, and sleepy. I can't think of another H word that means sleepy or tired but that's okay.
Tomorrow is 1 month on T and I am excited to keep going and see what happens with my body and my brain.
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